rant.

Today was really horrible. I feel like I want to drop English, I can't see how I'm going to get any better than a D, and that's only if I don't ruin the A2 exam, and do okay in the coursework this year. I just don't seem to be improving at all, even though I tried really hard on the last essay, and manged to get the same mark. And my mind just goes blank when she asks me a question, so I look like an idiot in class as well. It's the only lesson where I feel being younger than everyone else is a problem, they all know what they are doing and what the teachers are like. But then in the other class when she asks what some of the words mean in the poem I seem to be the only one who knows, so that's good I suppose. It's just getting me down at the moment. I'm sure I'll be over it tomorrow, maybe.
I'm seeing harry potter on wednesday, but I have to get a bus to the cinema to meet them, so I'll probably do that wrong as well.
There's pretty much no way I'll get accepted anywhere without doing a foundation year, I don't know why I bothered applying this year. I spose it doesn't really matter either way. Hopefully I won't have to do any interviews, but I guess it's good practice.
Camera Obscura make me happy and sad at the same time, but I think it's mainly happy.
I'm so whiny. I'll try and be a bit more cheerful.